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Meet Ann, battling cancer with humor | My Last Days

-We’ve been married 18 years,
and we balance each other out. And it’s good for our kids, because they see two different
ways of doing things — completely different ways
of doing things. -She’s a real good mom. She sees what they need,
she sees how to give it to them, and, also, she sees how
to just to have joy with them in their lives. There’s a song called
“True Companion,” and I was so taken by this song that we used it
as the wedding march. Well, the last verse
of the song, which we cut off
before the ceremony started, was, “And when life has done
irreparable harm,” and about two old people walking
through the final days. And I hadn’t even thought
about that until I heard the song recently
the other day. I said, “We’re not really
gonna do that.” You know, “We’re not gonna walk
through the final days together, because one of us
is going out far too soon.” -I was diagnosed with
breast cancer three years ago. And then, I was diagnosed
stage IV 18 months ago. I know my cancer’s terminal, but
you can be optimistic with that. You know,
I’ve handled it with humor, and Matt even made a joke
about that the other day that I thought,
“Oh, yeah, he gets it.” It’s, you know, part of life,
and it’s okay to talk about. Chris is —
doesn’t talk about it as much, but, you know, I bring it up. It’s not a secret in our family. -When I started dating
my girlfriend, Alex, I would joke all the time
that Alex is pregnant. And I would get this
huge reaction out of Mom all the time,
and it was never positive. She was always mad at me. -Well, I raised my older boy
to be — to wait for marriage
before babies, but, you know, forget that. Just go ahead. I mean, “Forget
what I taught you.” [ Laughs ] Make babies. You know, I’d done the research, and most people do have
a stage II cancer diagnosis, and I had no reason to believe that I wasn’t gonna be
one of them. So everything that I did
when I talked to my family was alone those lines,
“Yes, I have cancer and I have to have treatment,
but I will be fine.” And it never occurred to me
that I would end up being one of the 30%
who moves on to stage IV. I understand
that it’s gonna happen. And I don’t want it to happen. If I could do anything
to stop it, I would. But I — I can’t.
I’m doing everything I can. I had half my liver removed,
I’m doing all the chemos, I’m doing
everything they tell me. But I understand the diagnosis,
and what typically happens is, you do a chemo or treatment, and it works
for a short period of time, and then it stops working. And you do another one,
and it works, and then it stops working. And eventually,
they all stop working. And I think my family thinks that one of them is gonna work
for years, and that isn’t the way it works. Maybe I just want to keep
the cancer at bay for as long as I can. I don’t want this to affect
my family until it has to affect them. And I want them to live
their lives… not with cancer, you know,
if that makes sense. We’re starting to look
at colleges for Matt, and it’s really hard
for me to do those things. But I’m still gonna do them because I want him to have
that normal experience. Someday,
his life won’t be normal, but I’m gonna push that away
as long as I can. -The graduation
is the big keystone. I’m, of course, a little scared that something bad
will happen up until then, but currently,
that’s my big repressor. That’s what’s keeping me from, you know, breaking down
all the time is because she’s gonna make it
to the graduation, and that’s
only a year and a half away. -Ann is not at a position
in her life to quit trying to live longer, and so she wants every minute
she can get. She wants every treatment option
that she can find. Because, to her, living another
two or three years is important. Living another six
would be even better. -You know, I would really love
to see my older son be a father. More than even having
a grandbaby, I just want to see him be
a father. And I know he’s gonna be
a fantastic father, and I wish I could be there
to see that. You know, my younger son, I know that he’s gonna do
something great with school and get a graduate degree
or something, and I would love to see him
walk across that stage with that accomplishment. And… [ Sighs ] It’s — It’s sad to think
I won’t be there, but… I know they’re gonna do it. I have faith in them, so… -And I don’t — I don’t know whether I’ve even said this
very often. I love the perspective
she brings to things. It makes me grow
as a human being, understanding things
from her perspective. And I don’t think I say that
nearly often enough, either, is the positive influence
she has on my life. -I take the time to see everything now
that I didn’t before. Just the beauty of the trees
turning, birds, nature, my son’s smile,
how beautiful he is, you know? My husband’s smile. I mean, I just take a lot
of time to notice those things, and that is the trick
to surviving this diagnosis, is living in the moment. You can’t do that
when you’re just a mess. -Life after death
is not the issue. It’s living life well
up to that point. I tell her how pretty she is now
more than I used to. It’s still true.
She’s a beautiful woman. -Most people live
with blinders on, and they’re so caught up
in all the little things that distract you
from what really matters. When all that stuff
is kind of washed away, and, you know,
your life gets clean, you see what really counts,
and that’s the people you love. -Although I’m sure that,
in my actions, she can read it, you know, in my behavior,
she can read it, I don’t think I tell her enough
that I love her. -I definitely don’t tell her
enough. -Yeah. -We need to rethink that. -I’ll always remember. -Yeah, we will never forget. -My children are my legacy. I have raised two good boys, and they’re gonna either do
good things in the world or they’re going to be loving
fathers and raise good children and, you know, just be good
people, and that’s my legacy. I’m very happy with my children.
[ Chuckles softly ] I’m happy
for every single day I’m here.

100 thoughts on “Meet Ann, battling cancer with humor | My Last Days

  1. Ann – thank you so much for sharing your story. On Aug 5th I was diagnosed with stage 4 esophageal cancer, and you are such in inspiration to me. Please keep me posted.

  2. Bless you Ann and you're beautiful family, it's one big battle you have and I love the strength you are fighting it with 💜🇦🇺

  3. Ann you are such a brave lady.Just reading about your chemos and their resultant effects scared me.I have not met you but just from what has been shown i can tell you are a wonderful person.Please keep fighting, you are a winner.I know it is easier said than done but you are exceptionally brave.May God protect you.

  4. Hi Ann! I'm so glad to hear you are doing well! (As well as possible for someone with your condition.) You keep on fighting, and do whatever treatment YOU feel is best for you. Praying for you and your family, and please keep us posted! God bless you and take care!

  5. Hi Ann! First, you're remarkable, and your courage inspires me, but I want you to know one thing. I know how this sounds, but I swear it's the truth. I was diagnosed with Crohn's disease when I was 20 (I'm now 48). When I was 21, during one of my many month long hospitalizations, my colon (aka large bowel) ruptured. By the time they rushed me to the OR, I was already dead, for two minutes to be exact. But, within those 2 minutes, time stood still as I was suddenly standing in front of my grandfather who passed when I was only 8. We embraced for what felt like an eternity. He looked me in the eyes, and told me it was not yet my time, and that I had to go back. I had been in so much agony I was curled into the fetal position, screaming in pain, for weeks. No amount of drugs could stop the pain. I did NOT want to go back, because the pain was suddenly gone. In fact, I never felt better, but, I was ripped away, falling backwards, and when I opened my eyes, I was in the ICU. they'd also found two pea sized malignant tumours growing on the outside of my bowel they had no idea were even there. After six months of chemo, radiation, and three more surgeries, my head began to clear…and I finally realized that I had gone to heaven. It took me a while to accept it, but it now gives me incredible strength and hope. I now know death isn't an ending, but just a transition to the next stage of life. I'm telling you this because you said you didn't want to miss your sons graduation, and wanted to see your other son become a dad. Well, weather or not you die, you'll get to see both, I swear in my soul, you will. Death gets a bad rap, but it's become a part of my life as I almost died twice more since then. I've gas 23 GI surgeries and 8 other ones, and I know I could pass at any time, or I could live to be 90. None of us knows what the future holds, so I've, like you've, lived each day as though it were my last, with the knowledge that even if I pass, I'll still be able to see those I love. Knowing this brings me so much comfort, and I pray it does you as well. Sending prayers and well wishes to you and your beautiful family ❤

  6. Watch "Forks Over Knives" There's a woman in this film who had stage 4 breast cancer and she went on a whole foods diet to treat it and she's doing very well many years later. Very good info in this film.

  7. May you b blessed with many ore years..Thank You for posting. I'm battling stage 4 gastric cancer, your words ring true of all of us battling cancer.

  8. Someone please tell me this sweet lady is still alive!! She is so inspiring and I am praying 🙇 for her and her family. my dad is 2X survivor of cancer plus multiple times of skin cancer. scares me so much.

  9. Thankyou for this wonderful video. I would love to know if Ann Silberman has made it through this far. Does anyone know? What a wonderful lady.

  10. Ann are you there
    I am Muslim girl and I will pray tonight
    Love you
    💪 stay strong
    God always is with you

  11. This touched me in such a wonderful way. "God" put our spirits in these sometimes challenging bodies to know all of the emotions of unconditional love with all of our finite human senses. When we die, we will know love on a far grander scale.

  12. Ann if you are reading this I am glad to have had the opportunity to know you through this video . Sincerely , Stephen Gallagher .

  13. couldnt help but tear up to see a woman explain things that mean the most to her and she didnt cry. WOW that speaks volumes to me. hope ur still will us. Much love and respect

  14. I am so scared that my boyfriend’s stage 3B cancer will move on to stage 4. He is 25 and I just turned 22. 3 years together and I want, I need a lifetime more with him. You are such an amazing woman! So beautiful and so positive. I’m sorry for what you had to go through. I want them to find a cure for cancer so badly.

  15. I do not know if Ann is still here fighting, but I hope and pray that she is. She is such a phenomenal Woman that has inspired so many people. To Ann and her family, I am very greatful for the inner peace she has reminded everyone of. To all Cancer survivors, I pray that you will Never give up hope. I pray that you keep fighting with dignity and have an inner peace within.

  16. Dear sweet lady with a beautiful smile chemotherapy is more of a killer than cancer is. Did you know every time and oncologist buys the chemotherapy medications which is very costly and uses them on each patient each patient he uses them or she uses them on that doctor receives $4,000 a dose remember that $4,000 a Dos yes indeed the doctor's received this money as an incisor to use this poison instead of getting a real cure like vitamin B17 a lot of carrots vitamin K2 a lot of vegetation. Go out in fresh air fresh air kills cancer stale air induces it's gross oncologist would never take the medicine they give to their patients I'm no one to talk just a simple nurse who knows too much and has a big mouth and a simple mind and my heart hurts for you because I know you think at stage 4 you might not be here but my heart tells me you'll always be here man you'll always be around and with your family and it's God Almighty willing you may even have the Glorious cure whatever happens I wish you such blessings and goodness and happiness and all the pain free love and happiness in your life and the life to come remember dear lady first where born then we live this life which is the second phase the first phase was before birth inside the womb the third face is the new life after to come whatever happens dear lady you are beautiful you are blessed and you are healed I will pray for you forever please pray for me I wish I had your strength🤗🤗🤗 👁💜👈

  17. Watching Ann's story made me cry, but finding out Ann recently watched her son graduate University made me cry even more!

  18. Your updates brought me to tears!!!!! OMG!!!!! Keep fighting the fight!!!!!! Thank you! I will keep donating to fight cancer, new drugs, better drugs and new beginnings! OMG This is amazing story!

  19. She is still alive October 2018…God is great @butdocihatepink found her on twitter….wow just wow AND she looks amazing!!

  20. I am speechless.
    You r such a strong person.
    The story of your life touched my deeply.
    Hopefully you r doing okay in 2018.
    Warmest wishes from Germany

  21. Since I was diagnosed with bowel cancer & live on my own & in remission – I have made a 'living will' so that friends/family can tell me how great I am whilst I am still alive – hopefully it is good !!??

  22. Doing all the things the doctors say is the polar opposite of what you should be doing… Oh lord. Start KETO DIET , MEDITATION. POSITIVE MIND. DO NOT GET CHEMO…. IT. MAKES A. PERFECTLY HEALTHY PERSON SICK….

  23. I am unaware of doctors actually giving an ETD ( estimate time of death ) I just made it up……but really, they never would go there in the past ; as they only estimate and it makes a negative impression on patients. They could say….have your stuff in order, but that is advise for anyone .We all DIE. Time is relative. One day here may be one second in another frequency or dimension or it could be a year . The best thing is honesty and not the assumption, cancer is waiting for you, in the corner……Just do your thing, whatever it is. Think positive and have some fun. What makes you, who you are , is not your body, but that energy that lives inside of it. It controls everything. The body just follows and does what it is told by YOU ! Think about that.

  24. I lost my wife to cancer 30 years ago
    Just watching her suffer was so excruciating
    I’m glad to see her keep on going and living life to its fullest
    God Bless

  25. i am also a cancer patient. saw a story about Paul Stamets founder of Host defense . his 85 year old mother got cured from stage four breast cancer by taking Turkey Tail mushroom suplements 4 capsules in the morning and 4 capsules at night. you can probably find the story on youtube. good luck and never give up!

  26. I watched this video and was in tears. Them went to her blog and see she’s STILL ALIVE. OMG!!!!!!! More tears!!!! This made me so happy and touched my heart. See there is hope for people with cancer. I lost my 43 year old sister 2 years ago to TNBC and still have not gotten over her death. Ann May you live yo see your new oncologist retire too! You’re an amazing person and I admire your strath! Are you a grandma yet?!?!?

  27. My Oncologist has a sign in his office; If you're above ground, you're winning. I"m a winner still and I hope Ann and her awesome family will be winners for a very long time to come.

  28. And she is still alive and doing and looking great. Praying she gets many more memories and makes many more for her family.

  29. She's still alive! That is awesome Ann. You are a winner and a fighter. I'm living 2 years with kidney cancer. Let's kick cancers ass!

  30. Wow, she is still kicking 6 years later… I just saw that her youngest works for Google and grandbaby #3 is on the way… Wow, big pharma keeps her going…

  31. I know it sounds terrible, but it's not cancer that kills, it's chemo, radiation, junk food, toxic relationships, rat race and environmental poisons. You can't kill cancer stem cells, they're chemoresistant, what chemo does to you is poison already immunologically compromised and poorly fed very sick body. How can people believe that big pharma has their wellbeing at heart? Chemo will not prolong your life it will make your life miserable.

  32. Came across all these videos back in Scotland just amazing this YouTube page ❤️ wish I knew of this ages ago lovely person that takes time to go visiting these incredible people as I know as from my mum finding out 16 years ago she had silent killer ovarien cancer and being 1st trying out new chemotherapy’s then as back then this cancer was most aggressive then and her Beating it when they said she wouldn’t a simple operation and to be told this just awful then 7 years ago told she had breast cancer and she beat that smiling and still helping others then 2 years ago told she had lung cancer but was told they can operate to extend her life as no cancer was showing anywhere in her body but a month after the operation still laughing and smiling worrying about me and my son she was told cancer during the operation had spread to her bones and brain and liver etc and till her last breath with thousands and thousands Facebook messages to her she still was smiling and joking a few seconds she past wish I knew about this YouTube channel what an inspirationionail channel 💔❤️

  33. Amazing to know that you are alive and I wish the very best in all aspects of your life. Be happy and live long. Let many miracles happen in your life!

  34. Please stop with chemo. There are SO many natural alternative treatments! Chemo kills and they know how to treat and cure cancer. Don't be fooled.

  35. So happy to know that your wishes to see your sons' graduation and fatherhood have been answered. I just saw your video and am deeply grateful to have read the updates. You are truly inspiring!

  36. I had breast cancer in my left side so I had it removed & reconstructive surgery. Now I have a lump on the right side Now I go for a biopsy Tuesday with gods grace I won’t be cancer . So scared 😱

  37. I still believe that the estrogen they give women who are going through menopause, gives women breast cancer. I refused to take it and I am fine. EVER since those estrogen pills came out, women have been getting breast cancer like crazy. No Thanks!

  38. There is a woman who beat stage 4 pancreatic cancer on youtube – without chemo and drugs. She did vitamin B17 – intravenous and natural foods and juicing. There are people on youtube who have beat cancer.

  39. To everyone reading this please turn to Jesus He loves you and wants to save you from what you are going through, Only Jesus can truly heal you, He is the God of miracles, The bible tells us in Romans 10:13 For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved, I seen God do amazing things in my life and in the lifes of people I know, God saved someone I love from illness leading to death, There is nothing impossible to God, Its as simple as asking Him to show you He is there and if you really want to know Jesus will answer you, I know this because it happened to me when I called out to God

  40. I've been fighting stage IV lung cancer for seven years, and liver cancer for 3+. Two totally different primary cancers. I could go on and on, just love Ann's story

  41. Made my day that Ann made it!!! But just for anyone's info. I heard music three times the night before my dad passed, once behind my ear. So probably death isnt really death anyway.

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